assignment mode

i'm glad to know that i'm a total different person when it comes to assignment as compared to last semester. no more last minutes, i had enough of you. now i've 2 more pending assignments, eh no no, 1.5 more assignments to be completed till i can rest before the final ones come.


p/s: it's raining now and i can't go back. and i have nothing to do atm so that's why i'm writing here. :D

war

there is war going on in the house. between the parents and the children. so the question is :

WHO IS AT FAULT ??

and i wonder why

why do i still treat you as my priority after what you have done to me ? i always ask myself this when you show me your colours. i don't know what else can i do to make you happy. sighs. you are the one that makes me upset the most but yet you're still my priority. shoot me please.

hot guy

hot guy from barcelona... where is thee ???

childhood dreams

does anyone out there still try to achieve their childhood dreams ? i.e. becoming a doctor, marrying a white, studying overseas, driving yada yada cars, living in a luxurious 4763874 storey villa, being served by yada yada servants, having butlers and nanny that runs after your kids while you hit the malls with your Louis Vuitton handbag ??

well, i do. i'm still in the running to find the white & rich mr. right that promises a luxurious life. right now, i just wanna fullfil one which is to study overseas. life has been pretty much boring here, not as happening as i want it to be. i need a new place, new air for me to breathe. too much of unwanted as been happening and this is not what i'm asking for well, of course.

"let's pray that my dad strikes lottery so that i can study in aussie and bring back a white guy husband. *fingers and toes crossed* "

i want to know what love is

have you ever been in a situation where your thoughts and your feelings are contradicting with each other ? well, i should say that i have been and i'm going through it now. there are times when i will really tell myself to move on to allow someone new in, but my heart refuses to listen, and continue to love the same person that i've been liking for almost 2 years now. i dare say that i love you more than the ex.

i hate to tell myself that this is a one-sided feeling where i love him and he loves me not. it's sad but most probably, it's true. how sad right ? when you like someone so much and yet he doesn't feel the same for you ? am i supposed to give up or not ? that is the question. " Love is hard to get, but even harder to let go". so what am i supposed to do ?

*sighs*

last of the last

tomorrow marks the last day of the month, and also the last day of the year. well, it also means that it's time to reflect on 2009 itself. this year has been both enjoyable and also rocky for myself. there were many firsts this year and also many lasts. there are many things that i have been through, both which i enjoyed and regretted for doing.



early this year was quite a tough one i would say. i shall say i finally got back to being unattached after six years of relationships and break ups. it's not as easy as it seem to be, but at least i've really enjoyed and understood the meaning of freedom. i get to do what i want without worrying about anyone else. i lead my life the way i want to and i just do whatever that made me happy. perhaps i should thank you for calling it off, because without that, i don't think i am able to be the happy me again. taking a break from this made me realize how to appreciate what the others has to offer and that my world doesn't revolve around you and only you. although it took sometime for me to get over this and get used to what i have now, but at least i've done it and i've washed my hands really clean this time round. it also made me realize that i can always have other choices when the one i chose doesn't offer something good to me. though the times that we had for each other were both happy and sad, just let it be a happily never after. but seriously, i do enjoy the freedom of singlehood.



moving on, i finally decided to cut my hair short, after 9 years of the same old boring look. it wasn't as ugly as i expected, though i don't really look nice. :S after that, got in to degree and made it through the 1st year and i have 2 more years to go. birthday this year was more awesome than the last, i still have friends eventhough you're gone. i'm better off alone. love target this year has been the same for 2 years now. someone whom i don't know whether i can ever let go off. currently, i would say that life is meaningless without you, though you're here, just that you're not mine. i'm just wondering whether will you ever be or not.

anyways, i can't remember much about what to write right now. will add on with photos and also more story when i can think of it la. hahahaha ! toodles.

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the lips i used to kiss.

scream

as i handed in my last assignment for this semester, i smiled because i can hear my heart screaming for freedom and also more SHOPPING!! my fingers, brain, eyes and everything have been screaming for mercy, for me to give "them" some rest. but i know i cannot until today.

tonight is really gonna be a good good night for me because after 3 months, i can finally sleep all i want and i can put my brain to rest until maybe three months later. :)

time for more online shopping and also shopping at the malls. hitting the damn mall tomorrow ! :))

toddles !

"changes always come when you least expect it"

jaslyn's birthday

since it was jaslyn's birthday on the 11th of September, we decided to head to Tony Roma's to hold a little celebration for her. so here are the pics... :)

jaslyn making her birthday wish

the happy birthday girl

her unique way of cutting the cake

those who shared for the birthday present

enjoying the complimentary desert from Tony Roma's

those present :)

P/S: Xian Xian, this post is dedicated specially to you. hope you had a great time the other day and sorry for the delay.. ;P

:S

sorry for the lack of updates for i was extremely busy last week. 2 presentations in a row on wednesday and a 1500 words essay to be submitted on friday. thank God for i manage to crawl through the busiest week of this semester. it wasn't easy but at least i'm still surviving till this week. i have many post updates to be done here, namely Jaslyn's birthday celebration LAST FRIDAY and some other random updates lar. currently on mid sem break and hopefully i can add in all my updates during this break. har har har.

IF

how i wish i could have the power to turn back time, back to the time before i let you stepped into my life. i wish i could make the choice another time, to not let you come in. you came in, left footprints or perhaps, dirty footprints.

if only i can go back to the beginning, just like in the games. i would choose better options so that i'll end up happy, or maybe both of us would be happier. i've always hoped for something more from us, but in my dismay, things turned out bad.

source: http://www.flickr.com/photos/35019496@N03/3630231330/

i've always wanted this.

i could be so random at times.

lol.

=)

source : http://media.photobucket.com/image/cry%20on%20shoulder/diesheiky/56123d07.jpg?t=1192788360

i'll show you that best things in life are FREE; so if you wanna cry, just cry on my shoulder.

back on track - I HOPE. ;P

i've gone on hiatus mode ever since the last post about the photo shooting thingy. today, i feel like updating my blog but then i just don't know what should i blog about. lets see...

last week..

apparently, the entire School of Communication were closed down due to the confirmed cases of H1N1 among the students and one of the lecturers. the holiday made me so LAZY to do any of my assignments. so they said, procrastination is my middle name. *smiles widely* i did nothing but laze around, both in Melaka and also Klang. as usual, spent almost everyday in Sunway Pyramid trying to kill the time that i have, instead of finishing up my assignments. but typical of me to only do it one or two days before the due date...


so.. on monday.. was our 52nd Independence Day celebration. all thoroughout the day, i keep hearing many malaysians and i mean MA-LAY-SIANS, called in to the radio stations to wish our country a very happy BIRTHDAY. why don't they take the initiative to realize that every 31st August is the celebration of independence day of Malaysia, not her birthday. =.="


and i would just like to share my current addiction that is on repeat mode since i'm in the college's library, doing nothing. i'm currently addicted to the songs "Cry On My Shoulder - DSDS" (credits to CK darling), "Before I Fall In Love - Coco Lee" (credits to Fan Jing Jing) and now i'm looking for the song "Tu Ran Hao Xiang Ni - Wu Yue Tian".

i hate it when i miss you at wrong times.

please let me move on.