the road less travelled..

assignment mode

2010-05-05T16:19:00.000+08:00

i'm glad to know that i'm a total different person when it comes to assignment as compared to last semester. no more last minutes, i had enough of you. now i've 2 more pending assignments, eh no no, 1.5 more assignments to be completed till i can rest before the final ones come.

p/s: it's raining now and i can't go back. and i have nothing to do atm so that's why i'm writing here. :D

war

2010-04-19T21:49:00.001+08:00

there is war going on in the house. between the parents and the children. so the question is :

WHO IS AT FAULT ??

and i wonder why

2010-03-28T22:39:00.002+08:00

why do i still treat you as my priority after what you have done to me ? i always ask myself this when you show me your colours. i don't know what else can i do to make you happy. sighs. you are the one that makes me upset the most but yet you're still my priority. shoot me please.

hot guy

2010-03-02T17:15:00.002+08:00

hot guy from barcelona... where is thee ???

childhood dreams

2010-01-05T01:46:00.002+08:00

does anyone out there still try to achieve their childhood dreams ? i.e. becoming a doctor, marrying a white, studying overseas, driving yada yada cars, living in a luxurious 4763874 storey villa, being served by yada yada servants, having butlers and nanny that runs after your kids while you hit the malls with your Louis Vuitton handbag ??

well, i do. i'm still in the running to find the white & rich mr. right that promises a luxurious life. right now, i just wanna fullfil one which is to study overseas. life has been pretty much boring here, not as happening as i want it to be. i need a new place, new air for me to breathe. too much of unwanted as been happening and this is not what i'm asking for well, of course.

"let's pray that my dad strikes lottery so that i can study in aussie and bring back a white guy husband. *fingers and toes crossed* "

i want to know what love is

2010-01-04T02:40:00.004+08:00

have you ever been in a situation where your thoughts and your feelings are contradicting with each other ? well, i should say that i have been and i'm going through it now. there are times when i will really tell myself to move on to allow someone new in, but my heart refuses to listen, and continue to love the same person that i've been liking for almost 2 years now. i dare say that i love you more than the ex.

i hate to tell myself that this is a one-sided feeling where i love him and he loves me not. it's sad but most probably, it's true. how sad right ? when you like someone so much and yet he doesn't feel the same for you ? am i supposed to give up or not ? that is the question. " Love is hard to get, but even harder to let go". so what am i supposed to do ?

*sighs*

last of the last

2009-12-30T23:02:00.003+08:00

tomorrow marks the last day of the month, and also the last day of the year. well, it also means that it's time to reflect on 2009 itself. this year has been both enjoyable and also rocky for myself. there were many firsts this year and also many lasts. there are many things that i have been through, both which i enjoyed and regretted for doing.

early this year was quite a tough one i would say. i shall say i finally got back to being unattached after six years of relationships and break ups. it's not as easy as it seem to be, but at least i've really enjoyed and understood the meaning of freedom. i get to do what i want without worrying about anyone else. i lead my life the way i want to and i just do whatever that made me happy. perhaps i should thank you for calling it off, because without that, i don't think i am able to be the happy me again. taking a break from this made me realize how to appreciate what the others has to offer and that my world doesn't revolve around you and only you. although it took sometime for me to get over this and get used to what i have now, but at least i've done it and i've washed my hands really clean this time round. it also made me realize that i can always have other choices when the one i chose doesn't offer something good to me. though the times that we had for each other were both happy and sad, just let it be a happily never after. but seriously, i do enjoy the freedom of singlehood.

moving on, i finally decided to cut my hair short, after 9 years of the same old boring look. it wasn't as ugly as i expected, though i don't really look nice. :S after that, got in to degree and made it through the 1st year and i have 2 more years to go. birthday this year was more awesome than the last, i still have friends eventhough you're gone. i'm better off alone. love target this year has been the same for 2 years now. someone whom i don't know whether i can ever let go off. currently, i would say that life is meaningless without you, though you're here, just that you're not mine. i'm just wondering whether will you ever be or not.

anyways, i can't remember much about what to write right now. will add on with photos and also more story when i can think of it la. hahahaha ! toodles.

:*

2009-12-08T01:49:00.000+08:00

the lips i used to kiss.

scream

2009-11-18T16:59:00.001+08:00

as i handed in my last assignment for this semester, i smiled because i can hear my heart screaming for freedom and also more SHOPPING!! my fingers, brain, eyes and everything have been screaming for mercy, for me to give "them" some rest. but i know i cannot until today.

tonight is really gonna be a good good night for me because after 3 months, i can finally sleep all i want and i can put my brain to rest until maybe three months later. :)

time for more online shopping and also shopping at the malls. hitting the damn mall tomorrow ! :))

toddles !

2009-10-01T12:11:00.001+08:00

"changes always come when you least expect it"

jaslyn's birthday

2009-09-29T15:45:00.009+08:00

since it was jaslyn's birthday on the 11th of September, we decided to head to Tony Roma's to hold a little celebration for her. so here are the pics... :)

jaslyn making her birthday wish

the happy birthday girl

her unique way of cutting the cake

those who shared for the birthday present

enjoying the complimentary desert from Tony Roma's

those present :)

P/S: Xian Xian, this post is dedicated specially to you. hope you had a great time the other day and sorry for the delay.. ;P

:S

2009-09-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates for i was extremely busy last week. 2 presentations in a row on wednesday and a 1500 words essay to be submitted on friday. thank God for i manage to crawl through the busiest week of this semester. it wasn't easy but at least i'm still surviving till this week. i have many post updates to be done here, namely Jaslyn's birthday celebration LAST FRIDAY and some other random updates lar. currently on mid sem break and hopefully i can add in all my updates during this break. har har har.

IF

2009-09-07T22:38:00.005+08:00

how i wish i could have the power to turn back time, back to the time before i let you stepped into my life. i wish i could make the choice another time, to not let you come in. you came in, left footprints or perhaps, dirty footprints.

if only i can go back to the beginning, just like in the games. i would choose better options so that i'll end up happy, or maybe both of us would be happier. i've always hoped for something more from us, but in my dismay, things turned out bad.

source: http://www.flickr.com/photos/35019496@N03/3630231330/

i've always wanted this.

i could be so random at times.

lol.

=)

2009-09-03T14:40:00.004+08:00

source : http://media.photobucket.com/image/cry%20on%20shoulder/diesheiky/56123d07.jpg?t=1192788360

i'll show you that best things in life are FREE; so if you wanna cry, just cry on my shoulder.

back on track - I HOPE. ;P

2009-09-03T14:18:00.008+08:00

i've gone on hiatus mode ever since the last post about the photo shooting thingy. today, i feel like updating my blog but then i just don't know what should i blog about. lets see...

last week..

apparently, the entire School of Communication were closed down due to the confirmed cases of H1N1 among the students and one of the lecturers. the holiday made me so LAZY to do any of my assignments. so they said, procrastination is my middle name. *smiles widely* i did nothing but laze around, both in Melaka and also Klang. as usual, spent almost everyday in Sunway Pyramid trying to kill the time that i have, instead of finishing up my assignments. but typical of me to only do it one or two days before the due date...

so.. on monday.. was our 52nd Independence Day celebration. all thoroughout the day, i keep hearing many malaysians and i mean MA-LAY-SIANS, called in to the radio stations to wish our country a very happy BIRTHDAY. why don't they take the initiative to realize that every 31st August is the celebration of independence day of Malaysia, not her birthday. =.="

and i would just like to share my current addiction that is on repeat mode since i'm in the college's library, doing nothing. i'm currently addicted to the songs "Cry On My Shoulder - DSDS" (credits to CK darling), "Before I Fall In Love - Coco Lee" (credits to Fan Jing Jing) and now i'm looking for the song "Tu Ran Hao Xiang Ni - Wu Yue Tian".

i hate it when i miss you at wrong times.

please let me move on.

long awaited. :P

2009-08-17T18:25:00.011+08:00

here are the long awaited photos from the photoshoot around Melaka town. no editing cause i'm too lazy to do so. so here they are.

to my dearest abang pinggan a.k.a. bo bot,

sorry to keep you waiting.

thanks for dropping by. =))

<3

2009-08-03T00:08:00.003+08:00

here's a sneak preview of the photoshoot we had on last monday.

it's sad that i didn't appreciate the beauty of melaka and i've always wondered why there are many tourists here.

Darling, it would be unfair

to stay with something no longer there

but it doesn't mean I no longer care

but I'd feel like a burden you can't bear.

the day where everything changes

2009-07-28T02:39:00.005+08:00

28th July 2008 - The day which I thought a happily-ever-after story will begin. Being as naive as I am, I never wanted to believe that nothing lasts forever, until you left. It wasn't easy coping with life since then. I guess it was because I was too attached to you that once you've let go of me, I can't stand up on my own again, but I believe, time can mend the heart that has been shattered to a million pieces months ago.

I remember the time where we used to text each other and I informed you that you sent the 1000th message to the inbox of my phone and you even asked me to inform you if you are the 10000th. You are indeed. It's just that I didn't have the chance to tell you while we were still in a relationship, better - on a talking term. If only you would want to remember the fun we had while shooting for the sitcom.

This day last year, was the first time ever we kissed, we held hands and watched our first movie as lovebirds. I remember every single thing that we went through together - both happy and sad. I remember all the meaningful conversations and messages that we used to exchange everyday until the very last day of our relationship. I'm still keeping them, as a memory you. 7 months - not a short period of time I would say. Everything is so fresh in my mind right now as if it happened just yesterday. I will always remember the trips we make to the malls and also Genting.

How would I ever forget the times when you fall asleep without saying good night. It was often, but who cares ?? I loved you. I also remember the times where we used to spoil and tease each other and how you made me sing the Hot and Cold song by Katy Perry. It was fun. I enjoyed all the sleepovers at my place and not forgetting how we spent my birthday @ One Utama. I enjoyed making gifts and cards for you, but I doubt if you really liked them but who cares ?? I loved you. I enjoyed the night where you became my date for my first prom and also the night where we stayed up and tell each other everything about our high school lives.

There are so many things that I remember about us, but I doubt if you do. There are so many things that I've always wanted you to know but I didn't have the chance or guts to do so. I still miss you, as much as last year, today. I wouldn't deny the fact that you're still stucked in my heart, because moving on from such a fairy tale is such a waste to me. But I know that everything that has ended, will never repeat itself.

Thank you for all the times that we've spent together. You taught me how to believe in myself and also in fate. You made me believe that everything happens for a reason. I've learnt a lot while I'm left all by myself, struggling to put back the broken pieces together. Life was tough ever since you stopped everything about us. But all I know is that it's time to move on now, as you've washed your hands. The whole journey was great and fun, but everything that is fun will come to an end. One year is more than enough.

do respond if you read this ; at least I know I'm not talking to myself.

if only I can wash you away just like the waves washing away the sand.

sometimes I wish you are here.

sometimes I feel I'm better of without you.

the start of something new ?

2009-07-24T02:45:00.006+08:00

recently, i've been chatting a lot with my current guy bestie and i've come to realize that there are more things that i need to know about the weirdest and most &*^&@*#%$ creature, known as GUYS. yeah. you've heard me right. they are one of the most complex thing and yet they always claim woman to be the complex ones. in our current conversation, we are discussing about "a man actually can't stop thinking about you, and he refuses to tell his friends because he wants you for himself. Go ahead and make the first move, boys usually get nervous in the presence of godesses". we are on a debate about my topic HIM. both of us are trying to figure out what HE wants and what HE is trying to prove to me by all his actions. is He interested or is HE not ??? is HE like the quote or not ?? i'm confused. :S

P/S : they are that complicated that no pictures on can signify them.

should i confess or should i not ??

it's more than obvious. maybe... HE's just not interested.

*sighs*

:S

2009-07-21T02:30:00.001+08:00

I'M NEW ON PLURK ! FOLLOW ME !! :D

HAD A BORING MONDAY. :(

kiss the rain =*

2009-07-17T03:34:00.006+08:00

the emoticon used in the title used to be my favourite when i used to chat with you last time. not forgetting our //ass and /SAYANG emoticons. how i miss those times where we would talk on skype till the dawn breaks. however, it's time to look at a bigger picture now. you've moved on, way before me.

anyway, it's just the song that i'm listening to (Yiruma-Kiss The Rain) that reminded me of you.

i am seeking for a shelter in the pouring rain

if we ever talk again, there will never be US anymore. we will remain as

YOU and ME. we will never be a happily ever after story,

just the YESTER-US.

life will never be the same again. ever.

it's time for me to move on

139 days and still counting

yawn. :O

2009-07-16T07:05:00.000+08:00

it's 7.05 am, thursday and i'm off to bed. bai.

just some thoughts..

2009-07-15T03:41:00.003+08:00

everytime when i play a game, i would always wonder to myself.

"even in a game, i make mistakes and wrong moves; what more in the game called

LOVE ? "

Quote of the day :

God can heal a broken heart, only if He has all the missing pieces.

ICE AGE 3

2009-07-13T04:07:00.003+08:00

just got back from a movie. ICE AGE 3 @ MBO Cineplex; together with jeremy, his cousin and friend. thoroughly, i enjoyed the movie. you should know why don't cha ?? *winks*

till then. toddles !

i couldn't help but smile.

i wanna take a ride on your disco stick =)

2009-07-12T04:01:00.000+08:00

so yeah. at about 1.50pm on a rainy friday afternoon, while I was driving back from Malacca on the North-South Highway back to KL, my beautiful saga got banged; for the second time this year. bumper badly damaged and estimated cost for the repair is about 2k to 3k. hmmmm.

later that night, we went to MOS for the Mad To The Max Hip Hop Dance Competition organized by Help University. the drinks were quite expensive I would say, but overall, it was a good experience.

poo sai, edna and sin sin

love birds <3>

me, dionne, lili, sin sin and lee mei

after pop-ing the tequila

poo sai, sin sin, me

pissed.

2009-07-10T02:43:00.007+08:00

just when I wanted to start posting something to kick start my blog, someone just cause my mood to change and made me inspiration-less.

pfft.

till then.